In the past, I was very conscious of my blogs, trying to make sure that they were written in a way that may be of benefit to others. But finally, it has occurred to me that the first person they need to be of benefit to is myself.
I came to screenwriting late. I had spent many years following my songwriter/musician dreams, and they ultimately brought me to Tokyo. Working in Tokyo expanded my horizons to the point that it finally came clear that my path wasn’t songwriting, but screenwriting.
That started a 20-year journey for me which has only recently begun to bear fruit. I went the full course: the online classes, the in-person weekly classes (back when I was traveling back and forth between Tokyo and L.A.), the one-on-one tutors and coaches (from the Writers Store, which sadly closed), the mentoring from great writers who had worked in the trenches — you name it, I did it.
During all that time, I wrote. Finally, last year, my efforts paid off a bit. I got hired to write four Lifetime movies. While I had been aware of Lifetime, it was not a world where I spent a lot of time. But let’s say it has been a fertile learning ground and I was able to apply all I learned over those 20 years. It was a fantastic feeling.
In the midst of two of those scripts, I was asked by a producer to do a rewrite on a TV pilot being marketed to Netflix/Amazon… but in Japan. I was uniquely qualified to do the job, and, with my co-writer, I delivered 58 fresh pages in five days. At the end of it, I thought, “You know what? I can do this. This is not a fantasy. I do not need another 20 years of classes. I can do this.”
It was a liberating, uplifting moment… which I really needed, because as I imagine most writers will say, we spend so much time alone and/or in our heads that we start to question whether there is any validity at all in what we are doing or pursuing. I mean, yes, we must have dreams, but even the slightest encouragement or acknowledgment or nod of approval can mean a lot. In the case of the pilot, it was well-received with thumbs up. It made me feel great. As to its outcome? I don’t know. But I do know I did my best.
My Lifetime jobs are over for now. I am now back to my own projects — which means I must work better and harder, because there is no executive producer sending notes or reminding me of deadlines. There is only me and my strong belief that I have a unique voice and a special talent. And sometimes, that may be all there is to encourage me to keep going.